HATE THIS LIFE. :[[

Everything's just too complicated right now.. unlike my latter post, everything's not good right now. Lots of problems keeps on coming inside my mind right now.

Yeah, I got to meet my dad, but he doesn't show--or made me FEEL that i'm his daughter.! Yeah, at first he did efforts to help me at my current state but months after meeting him, I can't feel him anymore. Especially NOW THAT I NEED HIM SO MUCH..Dad, if you're reading this, then I'm telling this for you: Bakit hindi mo kayang gampanan ung pagiging tatay mo sa akin lalo na ngayon na kailangang kailangan kita--FINANCIALLY AND PHYSICALLY??? Sometimes I just feel that meeting you was just a waste of time. ANO BA???!!??

That's just one of my mind-fcking problems right now. I don't wanna elaborate them one by one as my mind is ready to explode any minute right now.

GOD, PLEASE END MY SUFFERING. BRING BACK ALL THE HAPPINESS I SHOULD BE HAVING RIGHT NOW. :( can't stand it anymore..

UPDATE. :D

wooosh! How long was I absent with this blog? I guess it's been 2 months already, right? SIGH. I'm busy nowadays with my new work. Anyway, just to update some stuff, here we go...

First: Have my new work at Mang Inasal. It's a semi-fine dining resto that serves UNLIMITED RICE in ALL of their PM[Paborito Meal] selections. I can't say that working there is easy... But not that hard, too. Everything is doing good, well as of this moment.

Second: Me & Him...hmm. We don't have any communication as of now since my wonderful phone got snatched 2 weeks ago. T_T. So I'll be earning some money to buy myself a new one.

Third: This is way crazy but, I.....I'm liking someone else. Just crushing, anyway. there's nothing wrong with that, I guess? And this guy is very nice. I'm just trying to sense if he does feel the same way towards me. That's all, NOTHING BEYOND THAT. And if the time comes that there will be something more than that, I guess I already need to choose between the two of them.

SIGH.....MY SILKY HEART.♥

Fourth: I took decs exam yesterday and once I pass, well, hello to college!;))

...Nothing more to say, until next time! ü

FIRST POST FOR 2010! :D

Hello, blog! Happy new year--although it's kinda late to say that. At least January paden.haha! Uhmm..where do I start? Well, to update things, last December 2009, I worked in a printing press as an extra[VJ Graphic Arts, Inc. is the name]..coz they need a lot of people to work for their projects..And from there, I met a lot of cool, and interesting friends and stuff! For instance, yung ginagawa naming mga planner, one of them was entitled "Belle de Jour" which means two things. First, it means "a french fashion lingo for an IT girl" (well, not quite sure if it was I.T. or "IT" since they were written differently in the planner and in their website.) and the second one REALLY made my spirits go HIGH.."the modern-day renaissance woman who dares to achieve her goals, lives her dream life, makes a difference in her community, and does everything in great style." SEE? The meaning was just so great! And I'm planning to buy one[ako yung gumawa tapos bibili din ako nun? LAWL HAHA!Why not?!?] Kaya lang ang bilis niya ma-out of stock because of it's popularity! So in the next few days, I need to check a lot of bookstores para makabili pa sana ako.

Oh and another, I already moved on from my past relationship. Why? Because while working last December, I found this guy that really made my heart beat once more. Alam ko some of you might say that "ang bilis mo naman magpalit ng boylet" and such other words that might refer to me as a "flirt", but NO, I AM NOT. It just so happened that I fell for him--and that's what I feel--so WALANG KOKONTRA. That's it. period. I am loving him more than my past relationships. And kung sakali man na maghiwalay kami, it should be for a good reason, since I can see him as a perfect guy that I can love. =)

Anyway, I need to catch up animé shows like I used to. I wasn't able to use the pc for a week, so there. See yah again for my next blog post!ü

HERE WE GO AGAIN. <3 [18]

Last Friday, I've manage to escape my mind-killing problems as I dash off to Manila. And take note, hindi ako nabigo. ;)) Saw a couple of my old friends, visited my hometown--which is Binondo[oh yeah, I can feel the Chinese blood running in my veins.. xDD]breathed Manila air..once again. Grabe I'm soooooooo happy talaga. And to tell you the truth, I always feel that I'm in HEAVEN whenever I remember it, not just because I had the chance to feel Manila again, it's also because of that ONE PERSON I've been missing out. That one person that I once loved,missed and cursed to forget. That person that I'm starting to love and miss, all over again. SIGH. We've been together--(nope, scratch that.) ALMOST TOGETHER, for 2 years, and we instantly drifted apart because of some problems. It's been the longest, so far, in my whole romantic life. Anyway, that person DID something that I never imagined he would. And that made my whole day very remarkable, and memorable at the same time. I wish for that to happen again. I honestly miss it. ♥



To that person I'm talking about, here's one thing I wanna say:
NO girl would ever regret having you as her boyfie.;))

THANKS,THANKS, AND THANKS. ANTAYIN MO, BABAWI AKO ONCE MY PROBLEMS GO AWAY. (You know what it is, right?ü ybyu!)

MY VERY IMPORTANT MESSAGE TO GOD.

Dear God,

I guess you already know what am I thinking right now. I know I did a very, very enormous sin almost for the past 2 weeks that might risk myself and my grandmother. That's why I am pleading and begging to You right now for forgiveness and understanding and make my SINGLE LIFE LAST LONGER. PLEASE,GOD! I CAN'T AFFORD MY GRANDMOTHER TO SUFFER THE SAME THING THAT SHE EXPERIENCED FROM WHAT MY MOTHER DID TO HER. I LOVE HER MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE, AND I'D RATHER DIE IF I HURT HER FEELINGS LIKE THE WAY MY MOM DID.


....And I,myself, CAN'T AFFORD TO TAKE SUCH BIG RESPONSIBILITIES IN MY LIFE. I STILL WISH TO TRAVEL, ENJOY, AND LOVE MY SINGLE LIFE WITH MY DEAREST GRANDMOM.

I hope You hear my everyday prayers and help, understand ,and forgive me at the same time. PLEASE GOD! PLEASE....



SINCERELY,

EUNICE.

DEAD LAZY.

SIGH. Hello again, my blog. I feel so lazy last month to the point that I never visited this blog of mine. nyarr. Anyway, para naman may maisulat ako kahit konti, okay, fine. I'll be spilling some things up.

FIRST OF ALL, MY AMV IS DONE! It's for my 200 subs! woowoo~! xDD Please, please, please enjoy it! It's the HARDEST AMV I made so far! WHY? See it for yourselves!



SECOND, my suitor and I started going out lately--OFFICIALLY and LEGALLY. WOULD YOU BELIEVE THAT?!

Finally, I've got 220% courage to tell my 'rents that someone is courting me. And she didn't mind it! whoo! ;D

OUR RELATIONSHIP STATUS? err, well... to say it frankly, I love him already. But we're not yet an official couple. Things get on our way, that's why. But we love each other, and that's what I think is important right now.

THIRD, NEW HITSU-CHAN STUFFS! WOOT!

1 sling bag, 2 mouse pads, 1 ID necklace holder and 1 fancy BLEACH-fied credit card!
[Note: All of these came from Comic Alley(Greenhills)]

SLING BAG.
It has Hitsugaya, Grimmjow, Ichigo and Ulquiorra.

BLEACH MOUSE PADS. xDD

[L-R] Front and Back View of BLEACH-fied credit card [Oh no you can't use that in getting some cash! Well I wish it can. lol xDDD]

Bleach ID necklace holder
It has: Gin Ichimaru, Byakuya Kuchiki, Rukia Kuchiki, Ichigo Kurosaki and of course, my very own Hitsugaya Toushiro! xDDD

OH AND BEFORE I FORGET,

10th Squad Insignia necklace and HitsuXMatsu Keychains[both got it a month ago, I just got lazy that's why I never get to upload it. Sorry xD]

SO ALL IN ALL, THIS IS WHAT I HAVE ALREADY FOR MY HITSU-CHAN COLLECTION:

I hope for more Hitsu-chan stuffs in the future to add it to my collection. ;D

So far, there's this one thing I want to say to H-I-M:
Thank you very much and I love you!♥
I hope I won't jinx anything by saying this.OHMEEGOSHPLEASENO!

LAZINESS STRIKES. xc

Woah, come to think of it, this is going to be my first[and the last, maybe.] post for the month of August! So there, what happened to me for the whole month that I never bothered to drop by to my oh-so-treasured blog? [LAWL.]

To start off, I won SECOND PLACE in the BEST DRAMA category of pinoyword7up's Summer AMV Contest 2009! woot! just too lucky to win that place! xD
**Soukka, I created a version two of my AMV since a lot of YT users complained about the first version's effects. Enjoy!ü**



Second, I got a new......suitor. *SIGH.* I don't want to tell too much things about him.

Asking me if I like him back or not? Well, yeah--at first. But I don't like him anymore. [he said he's gonna wait for me to love him back. OMG wtf.] anyway time tells everything, so let's just wait what will happen.

Third, I have new stuffs to add to my Hitsu-chan collection! wootwoot! I don't have the pics yet[actually I do have. But the pics were not too nice so I need some spare time to edit them and post it here afterwards.] so just watch out for it. ;))

Fourth, yeah BIGGEST NEWS EVAHHH! My mortal girl-enemy and his boyfriend got separated! WOOWOO! LAVEET! You guys know that I hated their paring FROM THE VERY START of their relationship. So there *jumps up and down like a stupid idiot. lol xD*

So that ends my August. Oh and another, this blog already turned 1 year last July--and I forgot all about it. lol so Happy Birthday, blog! ;D