HATE THIS LIFE. :[[

Everything's just too complicated right now.. unlike my latter post, everything's not good right now. Lots of problems keeps on coming inside my mind right now.

Yeah, I got to meet my dad, but he doesn't show--or made me FEEL that i'm his daughter.! Yeah, at first he did efforts to help me at my current state but months after meeting him, I can't feel him anymore. Especially NOW THAT I NEED HIM SO MUCH..Dad, if you're reading this, then I'm telling this for you: Bakit hindi mo kayang gampanan ung pagiging tatay mo sa akin lalo na ngayon na kailangang kailangan kita--FINANCIALLY AND PHYSICALLY??? Sometimes I just feel that meeting you was just a waste of time. ANO BA???!!??

That's just one of my mind-fcking problems right now. I don't wanna elaborate them one by one as my mind is ready to explode any minute right now.

GOD, PLEASE END MY SUFFERING. BRING BACK ALL THE HAPPINESS I SHOULD BE HAVING RIGHT NOW. :( can't stand it anymore..

UPDATE. :D

wooosh! How long was I absent with this blog? I guess it's been 2 months already, right? SIGH. I'm busy nowadays with my new work. Anyway, just to update some stuff, here we go...

First: Have my new work at Mang Inasal. It's a semi-fine dining resto that serves UNLIMITED RICE in ALL of their PM[Paborito Meal] selections. I can't say that working there is easy... But not that hard, too. Everything is doing good, well as of this moment.

Second: Me & Him...hmm. We don't have any communication as of now since my wonderful phone got snatched 2 weeks ago. T_T. So I'll be earning some money to buy myself a new one.

Third: This is way crazy but, I.....I'm liking someone else. Just crushing, anyway. there's nothing wrong with that, I guess? And this guy is very nice. I'm just trying to sense if he does feel the same way towards me. That's all, NOTHING BEYOND THAT. And if the time comes that there will be something more than that, I guess I already need to choose between the two of them.

SIGH.....MY SILKY HEART.♥

Fourth: I took decs exam yesterday and once I pass, well, hello to college!;))

...Nothing more to say, until next time! ü

FIRST POST FOR 2010! :D

Hello, blog! Happy new year--although it's kinda late to say that. At least January paden.haha! Uhmm..where do I start? Well, to update things, last December 2009, I worked in a printing press as an extra[VJ Graphic Arts, Inc. is the name]..coz they need a lot of people to work for their projects..And from there, I met a lot of cool, and interesting friends and stuff! For instance, yung ginagawa naming mga planner, one of them was entitled "Belle de Jour" which means two things. First, it means "a french fashion lingo for an IT girl" (well, not quite sure if it was I.T. or "IT" since they were written differently in the planner and in their website.) and the second one REALLY made my spirits go HIGH.."the modern-day renaissance woman who dares to achieve her goals, lives her dream life, makes a difference in her community, and does everything in great style." SEE? The meaning was just so great! And I'm planning to buy one[ako yung gumawa tapos bibili din ako nun? LAWL HAHA!Why not?!?] Kaya lang ang bilis niya ma-out of stock because of it's popularity! So in the next few days, I need to check a lot of bookstores para makabili pa sana ako.

Oh and another, I already moved on from my past relationship. Why? Because while working last December, I found this guy that really made my heart beat once more. Alam ko some of you might say that "ang bilis mo naman magpalit ng boylet" and such other words that might refer to me as a "flirt", but NO, I AM NOT. It just so happened that I fell for him--and that's what I feel--so WALANG KOKONTRA. That's it. period. I am loving him more than my past relationships. And kung sakali man na maghiwalay kami, it should be for a good reason, since I can see him as a perfect guy that I can love. =)

Anyway, I need to catch up animé shows like I used to. I wasn't able to use the pc for a week, so there. See yah again for my next blog post!ü